I do not wish to be anonymous. I believe that for deviancy
to be accepted
those who are deviant must
speak, stand up, and show themselves. I am
who I am and if someone does not like me as a result of knowing the
truth about me then I do not wish to be that persons friend anyway. I have
never been comfortable with lies, and masks are decidedly uncomfortable.
Come what may, be it infamy or prison, I would speak the whole truth.
I have an incorrect fetish. The only politically
redeeming aspect of my fantasies is that they invariably involve consenting
adults.
My fantasies excite me very much but if I, for an instant during masturbation,
imagine my fantasies with someone unwilling,
I lose my erection. Having said that, no one in their right mind would
consent
to fulfilling my fantasies. They would not survive the experience.
If you have fantasies that you are feeling guilty about, know this.
I have spent most of my life feeling guilty about my fantasies. My guilt
did not lessen their intensity or make them go away. When I finally accepted
that I was never going to harm anyone, and that a 'sin' committed in the
mind is not a sin, and accepted my fantasies, they did not increase in
intensity either. How I feel about my perversion makes no difference to
the fact that I have one. A person is defined in society by what they do,
not what they think.
A couple of less extreme writings are also included in this site. I
have met so many people who live in their fantasies for lack of any other
way of finding fulfillment, that I have written (in response to posted
questions) a couple of articles you may find useful or perhaps amusing.
By way of breaking the ice with women of
potential interest, I have written my thoughts. On the subject of 'normal'
sex (yes, it happens) I have compiled my advice
for those of little experience.
