Posted by Kimnikki on December 30, 2004 at 11:51:14:
In Reply to: survey posted by Davepseud on December 27, 2004 at 17:55:58:
: Gender (m/f):
Female
: Sexual orientation (straight, gay, bi, impossible to say, etc.):
Bi
: Age (approximate if you wish):
Old enough to knwo better, still young enough to try. LOL. 40 has come and gone, though not long ago.
: At what age did you start having snuff fantasies?:
At about 12 or 13, not sure of exact age. Though had always loved "scarey" movies even as little girl.
: About what percentage of your sexual fantasies are snuff-oriented?:
I'd say about 50-60% or so, though many of my fantasies overlap, so a pure number is hard to give.
: In your fantasies, do you usually see yourself as the killer or the victim?
Victim, almost without exception.
: In your fantasies, does the killer generally fuck the victim (willingly or otherwise)?:
Almost always yes.
: Torture the victim?:
Yes, though often the victim is a willing participant in this part as well.
: What types of death turn you on?:
Many: but anything that takes some time, and quite often is bloody as well, is good for me. So impalement, slow knife work, etc. I also don't mind hanging and strangulation as it takes a good long time.
: What killers' motivations generally turn up in your fantasies?:
Often sacrifice is a theme, but also that this is his/her fantasy, and he or she loves this idea and so do I. Sort of the ultimate confirmation of love between them. That is very common in my fantasies.
: What's the attitude of the victim? Horrified? Aroused? Willing?:
Aroused, and willing. Sometimes frightened as well, but the fear is part of the arousal almost always in that case.
: What details of other people's snuff fantasies turn you off?:
Hate of the victim, rape, guns ... all of these turn me off totally.
: How have your fantasies effected your real sex life? Has it broken up relationships? Have you ever had a lover who shared your fantasies?:
1) They have expanded them 2) Yes 3) Yes, my late husband.
: How closely do you guard the secret that you have these fantasies?:
Extremely. Only on the net do I reveal them.