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: : Folks-- : : I've been lurking here for some time, and I'm curious about other people with my kink. I've therefore created a survey for people into snuff fantasies. I'm posting this on more than one board. : : Please look it over and, if you wish, fill it out. Make your answers as long as you wish. : : In the interest of fair play, attaching my own answers to the end. : : David : : ---------------------- : : Gender (m/f): m : : Sexual orientation (straight, gay, bi, impossible to say, etc.): striaght : : Age (approximate if you wish): 55 : : At what age did you start having snuff fantasies?: 6? 5? : : About what percentage of your sexual fantasies are snuff-oriented?: 99 : : In your fantasies, do you usually see yourself as the killer or the victim? Always killer, sometimes lone, often as partner to a woman. : : In your fantasies, does the killer generally fuck the victim (willingly or otherwise)?: Often, but not always. Sometimes kill her while screwing her, sometimes screw her after I've killed her, often with female partner in crime cheering me on or joining in. : : Torture the victim?: No, at least not in the gothic sense. : : What types of death turn you on?: Shooting first, stabbing second, strangulation a distant third, beating an even more distant fourth. : : What killers' motivations generally turn up in your fantasies?: Those of stock crime and spy scenarios; occasional wanton crime spree.against the innocent. : : What's the attitude of the victim? Horrified? Aroused? Willing?: All over the map. I like variety. : : What details of other people's snuff fantasies turn you off?: Poop. Intestines. Cannibalism. Torture of the bamboo-under-fingernails sort. : : How have your fantasies effected your real sex life? Has it broken up relationships? Have you ever had a lover who shared your fantasies?: My wife of 28 years has been remarkably tolerant and kind, and often plays victim for me. Before her, four women were kind enough to play along with me, and I discussed the fetish with two others who were intrigued, but it never got further than the talking stage. : : How closely do you guard the secret that you have these fantasies?: Very closely. Only my wife (and those four long-ago girlfriends) know. I have no interest whatsoever in harming anyone in real life, but of course I realize that no one would understand that in a million years. : : ---------------------- : : MY ANSWERS: : : > Gender (m/f): : : Male : : > Sexual orientation (straight, gay, bi, impossible to say, etc.): : : Straight : : > Age (approximate if you wish): : : about 50 : : > At what age did you start having snuff fantasies?: : : 12, when I first started masturbating : : > About what percentage of your sexual fantasies are snuff-oriented?: : : Almost all of them. I can look at a beautiful woman and think "I really want to fuck her!" without thinking of anyone dying. But I doubt I have masturbated ten times in my life without a violent fantasy. : : > In your fantasies, do you usually see yourself as the killer or the victim? : : Almost always the killer. But occasionally the victim. A woman (even in a photograph) has to have a certain something to make me want to die for her pleasure. Actually, in my first teenage fantasies I was the victim, but pretty soon it became the exception, and has become more so in recent years. I'm still very much turned on by fantasies of sexy female killers, but usually they're killing other women. : : > In your fantasies, does the killer generally fuck the victim (willingly or otherwise)?: : : Absolutely. Before the death, and often at the point of death, as well. : : > Torture the victim?: : : Yes. Anything done for sexual pleasure should be done slowly and sensually, and that includes killing your partner. : : > What types of death turn you on?: : : Various forms of asphyxiation. Strangling is a big one for me. Hanging, as well, but it has to be done carefully and slowly. Bagging and drowning are also nice. Asphyxiation has the advantage of being slow and painful without being gory or gruesome (at least not in my imagination). : : > What killers' motivations generally turn up in your fantasies?: : : Sexual pleasure is the main one. A monetary or practical motive (killing the witness, making a snuff film) also works, as long as it's obvious that the killer really enjoys his/her work. Also, my killers are always experienced at what they do. : : > What's the attitude of the victim? Horrified? Aroused? Willing?: : : For me, victims fall into three categories: kidnapped and raped, seduced and tricked, and willing victim. When I'm the victim, I'm either seduced and tricked or willing. Lately, most of my fantasy victims have been kidnapped and raped. : : > What details of other people's snuff fantasies turn you off?: : : Attitudes of anger, revenge, or desire to punish on the part of the killer; a killer should have nothing against the victim, at all. Also, mutilation or anything too gory. Or a victim that has to be wrestled with. Victims should be securely tied down in a fuckable position before the fun begins. : : > How have your fantasies effected your real sex life? Has it broken up relationships? Have you ever had a lover who shared your fantasies?: : : I'm married to a woman who shares my fantasies very enthusiastically. We talk through fantasies all the time when we fuck, and do bondage if the kids aren't home. But it's been difficult. I was in college before I told a living soul. It's contributed to many breakups. And I've had other lovers who were extremely enthusiastic about it but were incompatible for other--non-sexual--reasons. And the one thing my wife doesn't share with me is a love for the photos; she's not turned on by the sight of another woman suffering, just the fantasy of her own suffering. : : > How closely do you guard the secret that you have these fantasies?: : : Very much so. My wife, a handful of ex-lovers, and two shrinks are the only people who know about it. I'd hate for my parents, or any of my kids, to find out.