Posted by Rathead on December 28, 2004 at 18:58:09:
In Reply to: survey posted by Davepseud on December 27, 2004 at 17:55:58:
Ok, your own answers to your questions are sounding pretty real, so I take it you´re not just a student trying to write a paper but you´re really one of us.
Welcome aboard!
Before I answer your survey, a question to you: are you writing stories or creating pictures yourself? If so: willing to share some?
Ok, your survey:
---Gender :
m
---Sexual orientation:
straight (wished I was bi....50 percent more options. But this seems to be hard-wired.)
---Age:
fortyish
---At what age did you start having snuff fantasies?:
about eight. Long before actual sexual interest set in.
---About what percentage of your sexual fantasies are snuff-oriented?:
more or less snuff-oriented, means also including very depraved stuff without actual death: almost all.
---In your fantasies, do you usually see yourself as the killer or the victim?
Perhaps 20 percent killer, 30 percent victim, and 50 percent are much more complicated.
---In your fantasies, does the killer generally fuck the victim (willingly or otherwise)?:
No, in most cases not.
---Torture the victim?:
Often.
---What types of death turn you on?:
Death, or the modalities of it, doesn´t turn me on at all. What turn me on is the cruelty...so the "methods" don´t matter at all. Can be everything.
---What killers' motivations generally turn up in your fantasies?:
Never any other motivation but pure sadism. The mere idea of a "motivation" like revenge, justice, hatred, etc is a total turn-off for me.
---What's the attitude of the victim? Horrified? Aroused? Willing?:
Female victim: just helpless and horrified. Male victim of a female killer: the same. Me, victim of a female killer: aroused, mostly willing.
---What details of other people's snuff fantasies turn you off?:
What bores me are all sorts of fetishistic limitations and cliches, like: arrows to the belly button of a female victim, or female perps that inevitably have to wear leather boots. A real turn off for me are all sorts of emotional relations between victim and perp, or female victims that are "willing" to be killed for whatever reason. The mere idea of a woman that wants to be killed just saddens me and I want her to be saved instead of being killed.
---How have your fantasies effected your real sex life? Has it broken up relationships? Have you ever had a lover who shared your fantasies?:
Normally just vanilla sex, or a bit of bdsm stuff and I can be perfectly happy with that...no need to play out snuff fantasies, actually I wouldnt even like to do that.
---How closely do you guard the secret that you have these fantasie?:
I don´t guard it on the net, obviously...in rl I shared it with six friends, half of them female. Only one of them, male, frowned upon it, but without further problems caused by it.