Posted by Ripper X on December 27, 2004 at 23:15:39:
In Reply to: survey posted by Davepseud on December 27, 2004 at 17:55:58:
Gender: Male
Sexual orientation Heterosexual
Age: Thirty
At what age did you start having snuff fantasies?: I'm a pervert, and I've always been a pervert. I started masterbating many many years before I could complete the act with an orgasm. HEY! I got bored, and it felt good! I think that it started when I watched tv, and would really go at it during the exciting parts. When Legend of Zelda came out for Nintendo, I'd play it while masterbating, not letting myself cum unless I died and I'd imagine what the monsters would do to my dead body.
About what percentage of your sexual fantasies are snuff-oriented?: Probably 95%, unless I'm seeing somebody new, or prepairing for a new relationship then I try to get it down to 10% . . . as long as rape don't count, cause if it does then I'm in trouble!
In your fantasies, do you usually see yourself as the killer or the victim?: Victim, however they are my fantasies so I'm also female and very very very cute! Well, I'm cute in R/L too, but I'm not an egotist . . . okay, yes I am. Grrrrrr!
In your fantasies, does the killer generally fuck the victim (willingly or otherwise)?: The death is what I'm going for, orgasm comes as the life gets snuffed away.
Torture the victim?: Sure, but it's totally fantasy, none of those hidious, twisted faces that would normally go with it.
What types of death turn you on?: I like it done quickly, none of that dramatic 15 minute death scenes for me. Stab em in the belly and watch their eyes focus on nothing. Speaking of eyes, closed works best for me when it comes to necro, again, totally fantasy; peaceful expressions, healthy skin, natural angles and limp.
What killers' motivations generally turn up in your fantasies?: Bored sex-slave-keepers, People with zero chance of fucking the victim normally, monsters, Sexy stalkers-serial killers.
What's the attitude of the victim? Horrified? Aroused? Willing?: Aroused, but totally against their will. Begging and pleading. Caught unaware. Usually it is NEVER consetual with me.
What details of other people's snuff fantasies turn you off?: It depends on the writer, if they do a good job, then this never happens. I pride myself on being open to other forms, it's just not very fun to have a closed mind, or go into a story with preconsieved notions about what has to happen for you to enjoy it. I guess that the hardest to get into is furries, and victims with to much clothing, however, like I said, their are writers out there that can pull these things off and make them work.
How have your fantasies effected your real sex life? Has it broken up relationships? Have you ever had a lover who shared your fantasies?: Sex is about passion and these things just have a funny way of slipping themselves into the act, if they don't then you're probably doing it wrong. It doesn't have to be a communication thing (that alone would scare anybody away if you're not good at it), it's part of exploring. Before I even fully realized my kink and accepted the name I was doing this stuff. I don't think that it's rare. A girlfriend of mine use to love it when after sex, that I just lay limp and dead on top of her (and in her). She could always squeeze out a few extra orgasms this way. THIS IS NECRO! We didn't know it at the time, but it was one of her favorite things to do.
How closely do you guard the secret that you have these fantasies? Well, I don't wear a T-shirt, and I do keep it from employers, and especially from shrinks (you've got more guts then I do, mate!), but it is a part of me. It's one of my pleasures. Watching movies, reading stories, collecting pictures, yes I talk about it to people. It's also part of my humor (sick and morbid jokes), so I guess that I kinda do wear a t-shirt, but only the in-crowd know that I'm wearing it.
BTW, Davepseud. Welcome to the board!
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